“Anxiety is like walking around with an umbrella waiting for it to rain”
I wanted to begin this post with a definitive explanation of what anxiety is. Upon beginning to research and self define I realised it is incredibly difficult to do so. However as I’m trying to be an optimist I’ll give it a go:
Anxiety is when you can’t sleep at night because you’ve got a million unanswered questions swimming around in your head. Questions that you’re not actually sure you want the answer to, which is another debate in itself. Anxiety is the feeling where you’re unsure if anybody cares about you or if people are waiting for you to walk out of a room so they can talk about you. Or the feeling that people are using you and setting you up to fail. Whether that be family, friends or your partner. Anxiety is the overwhelming feeling that you’re not good enough and that you have to do certain things in order for you to succeed and to be liked.
I experienced each one of the above feelings on a daily basis and I convinced myself (as I’m sure many of you do) that nobody would understand if I tried and explained. I learnt the hard way. It took me 6 years of constantly battling with the anxieties in my mind to seek professional help. The said professional, whilst I was skeptical to begin with (thanks anxiety), helped me to address my issues and encouraged me to speak about them to the people I cared about.
Why am I writing this post I hear you ask? Through life experiences, both personal and at work, I have observed this kind of issue. No. Hang on. I don’t like to describe anxiety as an issue. I believe it is a puzzle; something that can be solved if enough time and effort is put into it. I believe that too many people hide away from this “puzzle” that is anxiety and let it get the better of them. I was close to this myself. If you’re reading this and suffer with anxiety or love somebody who is, be patient, seek help and follow it through. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, you just need to help yourself believe that!
I hold the firm belief that people who endure the challenge of anxiety do not get the credit that they deserve for getting out of bed every morning and facing what life has to throw at you. Whilst it may seem like a simple task to many for others this is a massive achievement. I want to take this opportunity to say WELL DONE, and keep going. You can and you will overcome this.
And BEFORE YOU GO ….
Repeat after me and tell yourself “I can do this” and most importantly believe it.